lampin ni enzo

Which one do we celebrate?

2006-11-28T14:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, 27th November, was our first church wedding anniversary. My hubby and I were chatting last night but both of us forgot about it. He sent me an sms this morning to greet me a belated wedding anniversary.

The church wedding is the second time we got married. The first one was a civil ceremony last December 21, 2004. We also forgot to greet each other on our first civil wedding anniversary. But, enough of my forgetfulness....(my "alzheimer" is a different story - hehe!)..

So, this got me into thinking....which one do we celebrate? The civil ceremony or the church? Some of our devout catholic relatives say that we should celebrate the church wedding as it is on this day that God gave us His blessings. Others say that we should celebrate the civil one as this is more binding.

Both dates are very important to us. I think that we are lucky to have 2 wedding anniversaries. (Very few people have that -- 2 wedding dates with the SAME SPOUSE). That would mean twice the memories that we can go back to especially during times of trials in our marriage. I believe we need that....all the happy memories that would remind us of our love for each other.

Ours is not a perfect marriage and we are not a perfect couple... But lucky for us, we do not need to strive hard to make our marriage work...Surely, effort is still needed to make our marriage last...but we do not feel that effort at all...because we both give freely and selflessly ourselves to one another, and this act of giving brings happiness to us.

So, which one do we celebrate? I'd say BOTH!

Alive again :-)

2006-11-26T11:59:00.000+08:00

It's been 7 months since my last post, and so many things have happened, some good...some bad....but the important thing is I'm surviving...

It has been a (very!) tough 7 months....the toughest part is being away from my two babies -- hubby and enzo...I hope I could hang on...

Chatting with my hubby has become a very important event of my daily life....Thanks to technology, I am able to "watch" my baby, (almost) real-time...

I am still at a loss right now as to how I could do my duties to enzo as his mom...but God is good...I'm sure He will show me a way...

I really, really miss my family right now...(hmmm.."my family"....that sounds nice...)

eentsy weensy spider....

2006-05-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

eentsy weensy spider
went up the water spout
out came the rain
and washed the spider out
out came the sun
and dried up all the rain
and eentsy weensy spider
went up the spout again....

o ayan sweetie, I've pasted the lyrics para hndi ka na manghuhula when you sing this to enzo...hindi nalunod sa baha yung spider. he was just washed out...yung sa lyrics mo kasi nilunod mo yung spider -- how tragic! -- hehe!

haay... I'm just trying to cheer myself... I'm leaving tomorrow.....waaah!!! tagal ko hindi makikita baby ko!!

Mr. Congeniality!

2006-05-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

Bakit kaya ang mga babies, kahit wala pang teeth, ang cute cute pag nag smile? :-)

Enzo gave us his first real smile a couple of weeks ago...(it's no longer his kabag -- yehey!!). The smiles have now turned to chuckles, or giggles or whatever else you call it...basta may sound na cya..

The only problem is, he is at his "best" usually during the wee hours of the morning...Usually around 4 or 5 am...(yung tipong hilong-hilo pa kami ni hubby sa antok, kaya laging puyat -- hehe!....)

BUT, it's so much worth it (mapuyat, i mean). Seeing his smiles, his giggles and sometimes he even rewards us with shrieks of delight..aba, tumitili ang baby ko!

Now, nadagdagan ang katabi namin sa pagtulog -- yung camera -- because we want to be always ready when he transforms into Mr. Congeniality (at 4am....hohum....Zzzzz...).

How do I Love Thee?...

2006-04-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

How do I Love Thee? Let me count the ways....
By Elizabeth Barett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Hi Enzo,

Mommy just wants you to know that I really love you very much...and mommy is doing everything she can to give you a comfortable life...Please understand that mommy is doing this for you..

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As most of you already know, I have accepted the job in Singapore... ang sakit ng feeling, knowing that I'd be leaving enzo...That I won't be there when he makes his first "pag dapa"...his first "gapang"...his first words....even yung paglabas ng first tooth nya (or is it the first pair of teeth?)...

I know my husband will take good care of him, pero it's not a question of whether he will be well taken care of....I want to be with him when he experiences all the "firsts" sa buhay nya....It's one of the joys of being a mom...

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I will miss you so much baby....Mommy loves you very, very much!!!

YOU by Karen Carpenter

2006-04-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

Hubby got me a "new" phone yesterday.."New" meaning newly bought, but not necessarily brand new - a Nokia 6630. It has a built-in MP3, among its other features. Anyway...

As i was rockin enzo to sleep, i turned on the mp3 and listened to the selections of the previous owner. ...One of those was the song YOU by Karen Carpenter. I have heard this song so many times in the past and know (like most of you, i guess)that this is a love song....I never thought that it could have a different meaning for me now...I cried (silently lng naman) as I sang this song to enzo while rocking him to sleep earlier...

i have pasted the lyrics here...for the moms out there (and mga dads na rin) try nyo lang singing it to your kid/s...

YOU

You are the one who makes me happy
When everything else turns to gray
Yours is the voice that wakes me mornings
And sends me out into the day
You are the crowd that sits quiet list'ning to me
With all the mad sense I make
You are one of the few things worth remembering
And since it's all true, how can anyone mean more to me than you.
Sorry if sometimes I look past you
There's no one beyond your eyes
Inside my head the wheels are turning
Hey sometimes I'm not so wise
You are my heart and my soul, my inspiration
Just like the old love song goes
You are one of the few things worth remembering
And since it's all true, how could anyone mean more to me than you

Journey to Motherhood

2006-03-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

I can still remember that day we went to the clinic....grabe, seemed like it was only a few days ago...hubby and I went to the clinic to because I was having severe stomach pains at the time...I can feel that there was something definitely wrong with my body...We thought it was only my gastro acting up...little did we know that there is a surprise..no...a blessing that we are about to hear..